"What time did you get home last night?" Kate asked the next morning as she sat down beside Zac at their kitchen table. Junia and Shepherd were both at their respective schools and Abe was still sleeping. "I must have fell asleep before you came home but I swear I stayed up until one in the morning."
Zac swallowed hard at Kate's words because honestly he doesn't want to tell her he came home at five in the morning because she'll ask questions and he hates lying to her but maybe he should have thought about that before agreeing to do amateur porn.
"Five something," he finally speaks before shoveling some cereal into his mouth and giving Kate an innocent smile. Zac hoped he at least saved himself some time in questioning. Just grin and smile and he'd be okay for a bit longer.
Kate's mouth dropped open at Zac's answer and she shook her head, "What exactly did Taylor need that would make you be out that late?" she asked honestly her tone going concerned. "Does he not realize that while he may think it's perfectly okay to stay out late at all hours of the night and do weird errands, that other people don't or that other people have families."
As Kate rambled Zac just looked away from her and down at his almost empty bowl of cereal. "Yeah well, sadly Taylor will never change," he said hoping she didn't catch that he didn't answer her question on what Taylor had him doing. "I really should get going, got to head into the studio, finish up on some last minute merch stuff," he said as he stood from the table.
In all honesty he didn't have to be there that early today, he just wanted to get out of the house and away from Kate. Away from the guilty feeling in the pit of his stomach and away from the fact that while he felt guilty it wasn't because of the sexual acts he had partaken in or even that he had cheated. Zac was guilty because was lying to his wife about his whereabouts and he was guilty because he had liked last night.
"Remember we have that date planned at lunch at that cafe Nikki told us about," Kate reminded Zac as he walked to the sink with his dirty breakfast dishes. "And your mom has agreed to watch Abe."
"I know," Zac nodded as he turned briefly after making it to the sink and giving Kate a smile. "Hopefully Taylor lets us break for lunch on time," he laughed as he headed out of the kitchen after depositing his dishes into the sink.
Going out to his truck eventually Zac just got in and started it up, finally feeling like he could breathe more easier now that he was away from Kate and he no longer had to feel guilty. He just hoped the guilty feeling eased with time because he really didn't want to live with it all fucking day or however long it decides to stay when he is around Kate.
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By lunch time luckily most of his guilt seemed to be gone or maybe he just suppressed it by doing the designs he had to do for merch, he wasn't really sure. All he knew was that apparently he didn't have to meet Kate anymore for lunch so maybe that helped get rid of some of his guilt too and he really shouldn't have been happy that Shepherd came down with strep throat.
"Don't you got lunch date plans with Kate today?" Taylor asked as he stood from his desk and his voice brought Zac out of his thoughts. "Apparently your wife can never stop telling Natalie when you guys do your little dates," he said as his nose curled slightly in what looked like disgust. "I almost wish she wouldn't because then it makes Natalie want me to be a better husband."
"You should be a better husband anyway," Zac spoke as he shook his head. "But no, we don't have plans anymore. She texted earlier and said Shepherd was home sick. Has strep throat."
Taylor shook his head at Zac's words, "Being a better husband would make me bored," he said as he came to a stop in the doorway. "Which weren't you complaining about that to me a few weeks ago. Said your life was boring and you wanted change cause you were getting tired of boring."
Zac felt his cheeks get hot at that reminder and he looked down, "Y..yeah," he spoke as he avoided Taylor's gaze. "I think I was just being crazy though. I may have been three sheets to the wind or something."
"You weren't even drunk Zachary," Taylor scolded as he folded his arms. "I know I said you should take a risk, even dared you too. Well maybe you should get a tattoo or dye your hair some weird color. Then things won't be boring and Kate may just shit a brick at her ruined perfect husband."
"Yeah maybe I should," Zac agreed hoping he didn't let on that he had indeed already taken up Taylor's words though in a more extreme way. "Though I don't want to be ruined in Kate's eyes no matter what I do," he shrugged but honestly he knew if Kate ever found out what he was doing he would be ruined. Kate would never accept him doing porn and especially gay porn. She was born again and believed in going to church every Sunday even if she was no longer baptist, she still played the part of the good christian girl just with another denomination.
Taylor chuckled at Zac's words, "No matter what you do, if it's a risk then there is a chance Kate may see you as ruined," he said before turning on his heels. "Now go take a break. Eat lunch or do something. I'd like you to finish those merch designs when we get back and not be such a grump about it."
"I'm not grumpy," Zac argued as he stood from his desk and followed behind Taylor as his stomach growled slightly. "But lunch does sound good right about now," he agreed as he stepped outside and into the fresh air and sunlight.
"You going to go to Taco Bueno for lunch like always since Kate canceled on you?" Taylor asked curiously as he turned to face Zac, slipping on a pair of sunglasses.
Zac shook his head as he walked towards his truck, "Nah, think I am gonna go to that cafe place....Blue Bird Cafe or Black Bird...some damn bird," he laughed before opening the door to his truck and getting in. Starting the truck up he pulled out of his parking space and headed off towards the cafe.
He didn't really know why he was going without Kate when he could have just went to Taco Bueno but much like everything else that was part of the routine Zac was finding himself getting bored of so today he'd change it, just the once and go to this cafe instead of his usual and well he'd hope Kate wouldn't ask about his lunch time activity because he knew Kate still wanted to come here with him. She had said as much in her text and if she knew he had came without her she'd probably be a little hurt because Kate was weird like that, always wanting to try new restaurants with Zac for the first time.
Getting to the cafe, Zac parked his truck thankful that the place didn't look too busy. After getting out he pocketed his keys and headed inside. It didn't take him long to find a tiny booth at the back of the place and he walked over to it, sitting down and reaching for a menu to figure out just what he wanted.
It wasn't long after he did that, that he heard his waiter arrive and announce their selves and the moment they did Zac froze because he knew that voice and he didn't want to turn around and confirm his fears but he knew he would have to and so with every ounce of courage in him he turned and sure enough saw that his waiter was Harry, the man who just last nigh he had, had his lips around his dick and Harry had returned the favor.
Harry noticeably swallowed harder but he looked down and away from Zac, "C..can I start you off with a drink?" he asked as his words caught in his throat and he kept his gaze off of Zac.
Zac watched Harry's reaction to him and he couldn't help but feel his nerves calm some. "You know you seemed much more cockier last night. Figured you wouldn't balk when seeing me again," he spoke not even sure where his ability to sound confident and okay came from. "And I'll take a latte," he said knowing Nikki had told Kate, Isaac raved about their latte's and Isaac hardly raved about latte's so Zac wanted to see what was so special even if lattes weren't usually his thing.
"I'm not balking," Harry defended as he blushed slightly. "It's just not every day that one of my scene partners walks into the place where I work," he said as he wrote down Zac's drink order.
"But I thought you guys were close," Zac said as he watched Harry finally look at him. "Louis said you guys were. Even said you were roommates with Niall."
Harry blushed more, "We are but it's a semi unspoken rule that they don't come to where I work because I become a bumbling idiot around people I do scenes with, trust me Zayn came in here once and I screwed up his order so bad."
"Then how do you live with Niall?" Zac asked as he chewed his lip. He was sure Harry never blushed last night so to see him blushing now almost made Zac feel better about being a nervous wreck then.
"Because I don't do scene with him," Harry explained as if Zac should know. "Haven't you watched the videos on the site? You'd see I only ever work with Liam and Zayn," he spoke a bit more softer before turning and walking away.
After he walked away Zac just chewed on his lip as he reached inside the pocket of his jeans and he took out his cell phone. Seeing a missed call from Kate he raised his eyebrow but knew there was no sense to call her back right now and anyway he always found it a bit rude to make phone calls in restaurants.
When Harry arrived with his drink he put his phone away and as he did, his eyes landed on the foam design on his latte and now he felt himself blushing because there was no way Harry had actually done it but when he looked up at Harry and saw the younger boy smirking down at him he knew he had.
"Like it?" Harry asked as he locked eyes with Zac. "My own personal touch."
"It's a dick," Zac sputtered out as his cheeks went even warmer.
"Actually not just any dick. It's your dick," Harry corrected as his smirk grew wider. "Still have the image of it engrained into my brain."
Zac did his best to laugh but he was sure it came out weak and his cheeks just kept getting hotter, "I think you're just looking to impress me," he said as he shook his head. "If I remember correctly you said you had always wanted to sleep with me which means you are a fan," he spoke seeing Harry's eyes light up. "Can't say a fan has ever went to these lengths."
"Can't say a fans ever sucked your dick either," Harry countered which Zac scoffed at even if it was true. No fan had ever sucked his dick before even though he knew plenty had tried or suggested it but he turned them down because back then he had been a good husband, a good man, not someone who did porn as a side job just because they were bored with life.
Before he could speak though Zac froze when he watched as his wife came past Harry and sat down directly across from him.
"K...Katie?" he squeaked out because he hadn't been expecting her. He had thought she was going to be at home with a sick Shepherd.
"Sorry I'm late," Kate apologized as she offered Zac a smile. "Zoe agreed to come over and watch Shepherd and Abe for me, even with Shepherd sick," she continued oblivious to Zac's confusion. "Didn't you get my voice mail? The one where I said to come here anyway and I'd meet you" she asked as she raised an eyebrow once she more than likely realized he was confused to see her and maybe just also a bit scared to see her because the man he had cheated with last night was still standing at their table.
Zac had to force himself to get over his unease before answering Kate, "N..no, I didn't even have my phone on," he lied knowing he had briefly had it on and saw her missed call but he hadn't seen a notification for a voice mail.
"Doesn't matter now I guess," Kate shrugged as she turned her head to look at Harry and Zac was glad she hadn't questioned or seemed hurt that he came here without her or without knowing she intended to come. "You must be the waiter," she spoke as she offered Harry her best smile and Zac swore he was going to be sick. "I'll take a sweet tea with lemon to drink."
As Harry wrote down Kate's order, Zac couldn't help but watch him then, seeing that his whole demeanor had changed. He was no longer the bumbling idiot or the smug man who had made dick foam art nor was he even the man who had been delighted that Zac seemed to remember he was a fan.
Now Harry looked different and Zac couldn't place what he was reading on Harry's face but as Harry walked off to get Kate's drink order in, Zac only hoped he survived this lunch because he swore he was just waiting on God to come down and kill him for his sins. This had to be why Kate was here now. This was the big man's way of letting Zac have a slow and painful death.
Zac swallowed hard at Kate's words because honestly he doesn't want to tell her he came home at five in the morning because she'll ask questions and he hates lying to her but maybe he should have thought about that before agreeing to do amateur porn.
"Five something," he finally speaks before shoveling some cereal into his mouth and giving Kate an innocent smile. Zac hoped he at least saved himself some time in questioning. Just grin and smile and he'd be okay for a bit longer.
Kate's mouth dropped open at Zac's answer and she shook her head, "What exactly did Taylor need that would make you be out that late?" she asked honestly her tone going concerned. "Does he not realize that while he may think it's perfectly okay to stay out late at all hours of the night and do weird errands, that other people don't or that other people have families."
As Kate rambled Zac just looked away from her and down at his almost empty bowl of cereal. "Yeah well, sadly Taylor will never change," he said hoping she didn't catch that he didn't answer her question on what Taylor had him doing. "I really should get going, got to head into the studio, finish up on some last minute merch stuff," he said as he stood from the table.
In all honesty he didn't have to be there that early today, he just wanted to get out of the house and away from Kate. Away from the guilty feeling in the pit of his stomach and away from the fact that while he felt guilty it wasn't because of the sexual acts he had partaken in or even that he had cheated. Zac was guilty because was lying to his wife about his whereabouts and he was guilty because he had liked last night.
"Remember we have that date planned at lunch at that cafe Nikki told us about," Kate reminded Zac as he walked to the sink with his dirty breakfast dishes. "And your mom has agreed to watch Abe."
"I know," Zac nodded as he turned briefly after making it to the sink and giving Kate a smile. "Hopefully Taylor lets us break for lunch on time," he laughed as he headed out of the kitchen after depositing his dishes into the sink.
Going out to his truck eventually Zac just got in and started it up, finally feeling like he could breathe more easier now that he was away from Kate and he no longer had to feel guilty. He just hoped the guilty feeling eased with time because he really didn't want to live with it all fucking day or however long it decides to stay when he is around Kate.
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By lunch time luckily most of his guilt seemed to be gone or maybe he just suppressed it by doing the designs he had to do for merch, he wasn't really sure. All he knew was that apparently he didn't have to meet Kate anymore for lunch so maybe that helped get rid of some of his guilt too and he really shouldn't have been happy that Shepherd came down with strep throat.
"Don't you got lunch date plans with Kate today?" Taylor asked as he stood from his desk and his voice brought Zac out of his thoughts. "Apparently your wife can never stop telling Natalie when you guys do your little dates," he said as his nose curled slightly in what looked like disgust. "I almost wish she wouldn't because then it makes Natalie want me to be a better husband."
"You should be a better husband anyway," Zac spoke as he shook his head. "But no, we don't have plans anymore. She texted earlier and said Shepherd was home sick. Has strep throat."
Taylor shook his head at Zac's words, "Being a better husband would make me bored," he said as he came to a stop in the doorway. "Which weren't you complaining about that to me a few weeks ago. Said your life was boring and you wanted change cause you were getting tired of boring."
Zac felt his cheeks get hot at that reminder and he looked down, "Y..yeah," he spoke as he avoided Taylor's gaze. "I think I was just being crazy though. I may have been three sheets to the wind or something."
"You weren't even drunk Zachary," Taylor scolded as he folded his arms. "I know I said you should take a risk, even dared you too. Well maybe you should get a tattoo or dye your hair some weird color. Then things won't be boring and Kate may just shit a brick at her ruined perfect husband."
"Yeah maybe I should," Zac agreed hoping he didn't let on that he had indeed already taken up Taylor's words though in a more extreme way. "Though I don't want to be ruined in Kate's eyes no matter what I do," he shrugged but honestly he knew if Kate ever found out what he was doing he would be ruined. Kate would never accept him doing porn and especially gay porn. She was born again and believed in going to church every Sunday even if she was no longer baptist, she still played the part of the good christian girl just with another denomination.
Taylor chuckled at Zac's words, "No matter what you do, if it's a risk then there is a chance Kate may see you as ruined," he said before turning on his heels. "Now go take a break. Eat lunch or do something. I'd like you to finish those merch designs when we get back and not be such a grump about it."
"I'm not grumpy," Zac argued as he stood from his desk and followed behind Taylor as his stomach growled slightly. "But lunch does sound good right about now," he agreed as he stepped outside and into the fresh air and sunlight.
"You going to go to Taco Bueno for lunch like always since Kate canceled on you?" Taylor asked curiously as he turned to face Zac, slipping on a pair of sunglasses.
Zac shook his head as he walked towards his truck, "Nah, think I am gonna go to that cafe place....Blue Bird Cafe or Black Bird...some damn bird," he laughed before opening the door to his truck and getting in. Starting the truck up he pulled out of his parking space and headed off towards the cafe.
He didn't really know why he was going without Kate when he could have just went to Taco Bueno but much like everything else that was part of the routine Zac was finding himself getting bored of so today he'd change it, just the once and go to this cafe instead of his usual and well he'd hope Kate wouldn't ask about his lunch time activity because he knew Kate still wanted to come here with him. She had said as much in her text and if she knew he had came without her she'd probably be a little hurt because Kate was weird like that, always wanting to try new restaurants with Zac for the first time.
Getting to the cafe, Zac parked his truck thankful that the place didn't look too busy. After getting out he pocketed his keys and headed inside. It didn't take him long to find a tiny booth at the back of the place and he walked over to it, sitting down and reaching for a menu to figure out just what he wanted.
It wasn't long after he did that, that he heard his waiter arrive and announce their selves and the moment they did Zac froze because he knew that voice and he didn't want to turn around and confirm his fears but he knew he would have to and so with every ounce of courage in him he turned and sure enough saw that his waiter was Harry, the man who just last nigh he had, had his lips around his dick and Harry had returned the favor.
Harry noticeably swallowed harder but he looked down and away from Zac, "C..can I start you off with a drink?" he asked as his words caught in his throat and he kept his gaze off of Zac.
Zac watched Harry's reaction to him and he couldn't help but feel his nerves calm some. "You know you seemed much more cockier last night. Figured you wouldn't balk when seeing me again," he spoke not even sure where his ability to sound confident and okay came from. "And I'll take a latte," he said knowing Nikki had told Kate, Isaac raved about their latte's and Isaac hardly raved about latte's so Zac wanted to see what was so special even if lattes weren't usually his thing.
"I'm not balking," Harry defended as he blushed slightly. "It's just not every day that one of my scene partners walks into the place where I work," he said as he wrote down Zac's drink order.
"But I thought you guys were close," Zac said as he watched Harry finally look at him. "Louis said you guys were. Even said you were roommates with Niall."
Harry blushed more, "We are but it's a semi unspoken rule that they don't come to where I work because I become a bumbling idiot around people I do scenes with, trust me Zayn came in here once and I screwed up his order so bad."
"Then how do you live with Niall?" Zac asked as he chewed his lip. He was sure Harry never blushed last night so to see him blushing now almost made Zac feel better about being a nervous wreck then.
"Because I don't do scene with him," Harry explained as if Zac should know. "Haven't you watched the videos on the site? You'd see I only ever work with Liam and Zayn," he spoke a bit more softer before turning and walking away.
After he walked away Zac just chewed on his lip as he reached inside the pocket of his jeans and he took out his cell phone. Seeing a missed call from Kate he raised his eyebrow but knew there was no sense to call her back right now and anyway he always found it a bit rude to make phone calls in restaurants.
When Harry arrived with his drink he put his phone away and as he did, his eyes landed on the foam design on his latte and now he felt himself blushing because there was no way Harry had actually done it but when he looked up at Harry and saw the younger boy smirking down at him he knew he had.
"Like it?" Harry asked as he locked eyes with Zac. "My own personal touch."
"It's a dick," Zac sputtered out as his cheeks went even warmer.
"Actually not just any dick. It's your dick," Harry corrected as his smirk grew wider. "Still have the image of it engrained into my brain."
Zac did his best to laugh but he was sure it came out weak and his cheeks just kept getting hotter, "I think you're just looking to impress me," he said as he shook his head. "If I remember correctly you said you had always wanted to sleep with me which means you are a fan," he spoke seeing Harry's eyes light up. "Can't say a fan has ever went to these lengths."
"Can't say a fans ever sucked your dick either," Harry countered which Zac scoffed at even if it was true. No fan had ever sucked his dick before even though he knew plenty had tried or suggested it but he turned them down because back then he had been a good husband, a good man, not someone who did porn as a side job just because they were bored with life.
Before he could speak though Zac froze when he watched as his wife came past Harry and sat down directly across from him.
"K...Katie?" he squeaked out because he hadn't been expecting her. He had thought she was going to be at home with a sick Shepherd.
"Sorry I'm late," Kate apologized as she offered Zac a smile. "Zoe agreed to come over and watch Shepherd and Abe for me, even with Shepherd sick," she continued oblivious to Zac's confusion. "Didn't you get my voice mail? The one where I said to come here anyway and I'd meet you" she asked as she raised an eyebrow once she more than likely realized he was confused to see her and maybe just also a bit scared to see her because the man he had cheated with last night was still standing at their table.
Zac had to force himself to get over his unease before answering Kate, "N..no, I didn't even have my phone on," he lied knowing he had briefly had it on and saw her missed call but he hadn't seen a notification for a voice mail.
"Doesn't matter now I guess," Kate shrugged as she turned her head to look at Harry and Zac was glad she hadn't questioned or seemed hurt that he came here without her or without knowing she intended to come. "You must be the waiter," she spoke as she offered Harry her best smile and Zac swore he was going to be sick. "I'll take a sweet tea with lemon to drink."
As Harry wrote down Kate's order, Zac couldn't help but watch him then, seeing that his whole demeanor had changed. He was no longer the bumbling idiot or the smug man who had made dick foam art nor was he even the man who had been delighted that Zac seemed to remember he was a fan.
Now Harry looked different and Zac couldn't place what he was reading on Harry's face but as Harry walked off to get Kate's drink order in, Zac only hoped he survived this lunch because he swore he was just waiting on God to come down and kill him for his sins. This had to be why Kate was here now. This was the big man's way of letting Zac have a slow and painful death.